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Whoever you are. If you're reading this please drop a comment and let me know.

Nothing fancy, just anything.

I just wanna know if anyone's reading my blog. ^^

Thanks.

Feelings suck...no feelings suck worse?

My shoulder is better. Think it's pretty much healed. So that's good.

Today I just feel so bored though.

Like I feel bored and understimulated but I don't wanna do anything. Even if I do something the feeling won't go away.

I feel lonely and empty but there's noone I wanna be with. 

I feel drained.  I feel like something's missing.

I can't ride my bike to work because there are storm winds today and it's probably gonna start raining as soon as I step out the door. It has happened before.

It would be the perfect scene for my mood today though.

Feel like I should have a raincloud following over my head all day.

How wierd is it to feel this way but at the same time not really wanting to feel happier?

I think I need days like this sometimes. Atleast in this mood I feel no stress at all.

I don't care about anything. I don't wanna get involved.

I just wanna float around on my raincloud, look down on the world and not feel like a part of it.

I think I know what it is I need when I feel this way. But there's noone here who can give it to me. And I don't like needing something from others. But I just can't comfort myself.

I'm not talking about sex.

Just over an hour left before I have to go to work. 

Damn. 

I miss...something.

PAIN! D.:

Yesterday I got a serious pain in my left shoulder. It's been creeping up on me all week at work. I took some painkillers and tried to rest but today it was even worse. I almost cried. Because of this I haven't been able to sleep very well. Tonight I think I got like four hours sleep. :(

I talked to my mom and she said it's probably an inflammation in my muscle or tendons. She had it and the pain she described fit. Basically it hurts like hell. It hurts as much as my broken coller bone did. Maybe even more without the painkillers. >.<

I called the doctor anyway and talked to a nurse. She said I should eat anti inflammatory painkillers and rest. 

The "fun" part yesterday was I couldn't do anything. 

I really wanted burgers but it's really hard making burgers with only one arm. >.<

So I ate chocolate and was hungry almost the whole day. I cooked some bacon and eggs 'cause that was easy. But I wanted burgers. I had all the ingridients in the fridge.

So today I called my parents and my mom helped me cook and clean. Thanks mom! :D

They also gave me some strong painkillers so I think I'll be able to sleep tonight.

Tomorrow I was gonna go to a party but now I can't. And I can't work next week.

Kinda sucks because I need the money. 

Anyway, after my parents left I've just been bumming out on the sofa watching old House eps.

I love House and I want some of that vicodin now! ;P

Now I'm gonna piss off to bed. ;P

Night!

Photoshop fun!

So I took a pic of myself. I am wearing make-up but not alot. I liked the pic so I played with it in photoshop. What I fixed could have also been done with make-up and better lighting. 

The funny thing is I think the photoshopped pic looks more like me. Like how I see myself. XD

Photoshop is fun! :D

Tickets booked! :D

Yay, finally I booked my ticket to Japan!

I'll be there from August 9th to September 18th. :D

It'll be the longest vacation in Japan I've had. Hopefully they'll keep getting longer and longer until one day I'm actually living there. ;) Haha!

First I'm going to Osaka for a couple of weeks.

I'm gonna buy a cute yukata and celebrate obon with my friend. Finally I can go to a matsuri! 

Can't wait!!

And maybe after that I'll go to Okinawa for a few days. I really want to go there so I hope that won't be too expensive.

After that I might go couchsurfing in Tochigi. I love the countryside and I know a great place in the middle of nowhere where I can couchsurf. While I'm there I'll go to Nikko.

Then I'm going to Tokyo for the rest of my trip to hang out with my friends. <3

And shop! XD

Oooooh I'm so exited! lol

Sweden <3 Japan = true

I was watching this awesome okinawan enka song.  Then it struck me that the rythem and sound of the strings sounded very similar to a type of swedish folk musik. "Gånglåt" I thought.

So I searched youtube for "gånglåt" to compare. And what do I find?!

This!! :D

And japanese ppl dancing swedish folkdance. Wearing traditional clothes and everything! lol

I was very surprised. And I guess it strengthened my theory that maybe our traditional music is not so different!

And it made me wanna dance folkdance again. I used to do it when I was a kid. It's fun!

Also I used to play that song on the violin. "Gånglåt från Äppelbo"

But this next song is more what I was thinking about when I heared the enka song.

Anyway.

I feel awesome. lol

Good night!

Enka!

This is one of my favourite songs right now. Mikawa Kenichi is awesome!

I wanna be an enka singer in Japan. :D

Lately I've been listening to enka alot. I really like it. Especially the more traditional sounding older songs.

I'm so tired today and I hurt my arm somehow. It just hurts. I don't know why.

I feel like singing really loud right now but I don't think my neighbours would like that. ;)

Anyway I'm gonna make another cup of tea. Sencha <3

And eventually I'll go to bed.

LOL

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I need more time!

There's not enough hours in a day.

I want to study japanese but I want  to be good at singing so I'm doing that instead.

Improving my voice and skill is something I've always wanted to do.

I wanna be a good singer! I know I'm not bad but I'm far from great. lol

Singing lessons would be awesome. I need to learn some techniques I think.

I post the stuff I'm fairly pleased with in the playlist at the bottom of this page.

Still needs alot of work. XD

I think my diet is going good.

I'm so gonna win! :D I hope.

Rawr!

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