Something that made me lol.

If I was like that when I am drunk I'd freak out if I looked in my closet. lol

Trying out blogger droid.

Yesterday I went to a piano bar with my friends. It's a cool place at the top of a skyscraper but it got really crowded so we moved on to another place. It was a fun night.

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Yep.

One month to christmas.

(random pic)

December is the worst month at my job.
Too much mail.

Recently I've been shopping alot from eBay.
It's really great.
I bought gemstones, beads, nail art stuff and lots more.
Gotta put a hold on it now though because I really don't have much money.

I've been unable to work full time for a while now, because of my RA, so I haven't been able to save any money every month.
It's not like I'm poor but I'm sure not rich...yet!

Today I've been day dreaming about meeting some of my favourite musicians. lol
Just think it'd be alot of fun to actually hang out with them in person.
Since I'm always so lonely IRL I'll dream about rock stars. lol

I started watching the new season of Hell's Kitchen.
Wish I had a personal chef.
Someone who's really great at asian food. Someone who'll cook wierd, delicious asian food for me. lol
I'm hungry now.

Here are some false nails I made! I'm proud. I think they're really cute.
And no, I don't have 12 fingers. Just wasn't sure what size to use so I made an extra pair.

Well, I'll go get something to eat now and then continue watching Hell's Kitchen!

Weekend.

I guess I won't be enjoying it so much because I really need to do laundry and clean.
I need to stay home.
No more spontanious trips, staying too long and feeling unwanted.
(I had a little adventure last weekend.)

Went to the hospital today for my regular blood test. Do it every other week.
Gotta make sure my liver's not messed up by the RA medicine.
My test results have been great so far.

Then I went to my friend and picked up a "new" DVD player and wireless router I bought from him.
Yay, no more dragging the net cable around at home. I gotta test the DVD player tomorrow.
It's supposed to be region free. I need that for my japanese DVDs to work!

My sugar detox is going pretty good. Got lots of great tea to enjoy.
I have a craving for chocolate right now though.

Gonna eat more chicken wings and start watching Fringe now.

The complications of trying not to be complicated.

I've been acting stupid and silly.

I thought I was stronger.

I realize I can't make him care about me.

Giving up is hard. I don't want to but I guess I should.

No more clinging. No more dreams.

Just friends.

Feelings?

Don't tell me you love me a little if you don't think you could ever love me more.

kaeranai hibi wo aishita hito yo

"sayonara" wo kakusu futari ja naku
"sayonara" ni naku futari de itai
omoikaesu yori wasurete hoshii
soshite watashi wo kuuhaku ni oite
mou sugita hibi wo ottarishinaide