Om jag älskar.

Det är kallt och jag är ensam igen.

I mitt städade hem ligger luften tjock av tomhet.

Jag vill inte bråka med den jag älskar.

Jag vill att du ska förstå.

Jag kan inte förklara kärlek.

Om jag älskar dig så älskar jag.

Jag finns här för dig.

Jag vill visa dig.

Det finns ingen anledning.

Om vi älskar varann, varför slösa bort det?

Jag vill inte förlora den jag älskar.

Jag vill kunna lita på dig.

Jag kan inte förklara kärlek.

Om jag älskar dig så älskar jag.

Jag väntar här på dig.

Jag vill träffa dig.

Din röst som sa "Jag älskar dig".

Jag vill tro på den.

Ge inte upp.

Det finns något för oss två.

Du såg det i din dröm.

Jag kan inte förklara kärlek.

Om jag älskar dig så älskar jag.

Jag ser ditt namn där.

Jag vill trösta dig.

Jag vill älska dig.

Love tarot reading.

There are reasons to be suspicious of blatant contradictions. In this light, someone is skimming the surface because they do not want you to get too close or know them too well. They are the proverbial dance-away lover and you should heed their warning. Hold onto your heartstrings and keep the relationship light. The two of you have to have a serious talk if your partner is guilty of the above as well.

A clean home.

Makes me feel so alone.

I don't want to be alone.

Sad.

I'll try.

You shouldn't try to control aggression with peaceful intensions, because this can subsequently cause even more violence. When violent people realize that you won't fight back they take it as sign of weakness instead of understanding that you have evolved past this type of behavior.

I always do that.

So how should I handle situations like that?

Scream and fight back?

That doesn't seem right either.

Love tarot reading.

The Star represents the end of a previous journey and the beginning of delight. When the Star chooses you it tells of a more balanced course that is something more agreeable than the rollercoaster ride you have been on. Just be careful what you wish for, because the Star is the promise of wishes fulfilled. It is the card of second chances. Or if you didn't or do not take them, third chances.

I wish it is true.

2h sleep. Waking up to massive heartbreak.

Today my heart died for a few minutes.

I could actually feel it break.

It felt like my lungs were collapsing.

Panic.

Can't remember ever feeling so scared. Love is really the scariest thing for me.

But I decided a while ago to face my fear.

Living safe and not taking any chances isn't really living.

I realized that.

I can't be afraid of being pathetic.

I have to risk something to gain something.

Someone has my heart and I want him to have it.

He has all the power right now.

Creepy dream.

I had a dream that I was slowly lifting from my bed. My legs were lifting like I was levitating by the power of my mind. Then suddenly something pulled me by my legs half way down my bed. Since I have a ghost in my appartment occationaly this is something I believe could really happen. Hah.

Anyway, when I had been pulled in my dream I was partially awake and it felt so real. I tried to shake off the invisible hands holding my legs because they were preventing me from moving. It was creepy because I couldn't move. I know this is because of sleep paralasys but in my dream it was because it was still holding my legs. When I woke up fully I realized I was still in the normal position in my bed. I was pretty relieved. Haha.

After that I had a funny, wierd dream about my bf living in a trailer. lol

It was a long dream but unfourtunately I didn't get to finish it because my dad called and woke me up. When I woke up and had to answer the phone I forgot most of the dream. >.<

Well, I guess I'll have more chances to dream about him. ^^

Now time to get ready for going to pick up dads computer.

Wow. creativity, welcome!

I entered into one of my creativity spurts a few days ago.

Somehow I was able to come up with a great new design for rings. It's like whole ring design concept. Starting out I made rings for women but I guess my boyfriends love for jewelry is what made me think this design could be made for men too.

Since I started making jewelry I have always wanted to make something that could also be worn by men. I'm happy that I now have. :D

I believe my rings have a unique design and concept. They are unisex but I design them for men. I love my new rings! I'm proud of myself. ^^

The rings are made from round leather chords. I tie in silver beads and make decorative knots. The chord wraps around the finger so that the ring is "double". Because of this design the rings can be worn in different ways. That makes it possible for the wearer to change the rings design slightly by himself. As usual all of my rings are unique. Same basic design but all slightly different.

One problem is that I'm not yet sure how big I should make them. My fingers are tiny and not a good model for making rings for men. I designed them a little thicker than my thumb now. I hope that will work. I hope they will fit someone. Haha.

December wraps it's cold around me.

Wishing for snow.

Christmas is almost here.

Soon it's a new year too.

I will go into it believing in dreams coming true.

<3