Lazy sunday.

Been watching moves, bleaching hair, doing laundry...

Had fun last night on stickam.jp. Met some new friends.

Funny, cute people. :D

I don't really want to be alone today.

When I'm in this mood my thoughts keep going to him, the one I lost, or never really had.

Being close to someone and then just losing all contact is so wierd.

It's a sad thing even if he hurt me alot.

I miss him.

I've been eating way too much sugar lately. It has to stop.

My skin is getting so bad. :(

Next week I'll be strict and just eat eggs again.

Even if I feel sad now I'm sure there's good times ahead.

I can't lose hope.

The snow will melt soon.

New week.

So I try not to think about what has happened. It's hard though.

Hard to just stop caring about someone. But I'm fine.

Spent the weekend at my parents, in my hometown.

Ate way too much unheathy stuff. Pizza, cola, candy...

Gotta go back to eggs this week.

Next weekend I was thinking maybe I'd go to Stockholm. Not sure now though.

I kinda need to stay home and think too. Think about startin my own company.

My jewelry is getting popular and I feel like I should make something of it.

Maybe it could be successful.

Don't know much about buisness though. I just know that I don't want to spend my

life working for someone else.

Thinking about life.

I wish the arms that welcome me wasn't so far away.

Rings.

I now have posted some pictures of my ring designs in my jewelry blog.

Check it out.

How to succeed?

Now that I have tried something the only two ways I could think of and neither worked, what do I do next time?

Ah, but I guess it wasn't all up to me anyway.


Both times I tried it was already doomed from the start.

I don't like secrets. I don't like being lied to. I don't like playing jealousy games.

A truly strong person is someone who can talk about their feelings.

I used to keep it all inside. I will be more selfish now.

I had some good practice.

These last months has changed me as a person and made me stronger.

Thank you.

My words of wisdom. lol

When you let your pride hurt others you don't really have anything to be proud of. Truly strong people don't need that kind of pride.

Why be sad if you just lose something you never really had?

So what now?

Do I feel like I wasted six months?
Maybe.
I had alot of emotions invested.
I do feel like I learned something about myself.
I meant everything I said though.
Never been that honest before.
Honesty doesn't help if the other person doesn't trust what you say.
There was nothing I could do.
I tried my best.

Time to have fun and be myself again!

Congratulations world. ;D

It's over again.

I'm so sick of this I don't even care anymore.
I accept what has been said and will move on.
I thought I had found my equal.

The aren't many people who can truly be my friends.

I wasn't looking for love so I shouldn't be so sad that I didn't really find it.
Right?

So I'm thinking this is for the best.

Learn from the bad and then forget it.
Remember the good and cherish those memories.

Let time heal the damage done and move on.

No use crying over broken dreams because they were only dreams.

Time to wake up.

I have my whole amazing life waiting for me!

Sigh no more...

Sigh no more ladies,
Sigh no more,
Men were decievers ever,
One foot in sea,
and one on shore,
To one thing constant never,
Then sigh not so,
But let them go,
And be you bithe and bonny,
Converting all
your sounds of woe,
Into hey nonny nonny!

女のみち

wish I had the range to sing this...

Stuck.

So I didn't get a new job.

Hope that's because there's something better waiting for me out there.

For now I feel stuck.

I want to leave here and go to where my love is but I have to wait.
I'm not welcome there yet.

I just want to be happy.

I'll keep trying.

Still holding on to my dream.

Again.

All I could think about when you called me today was how beautiful you are.

I was surprised you called.

Why did you call?

Did you want to end it the way you did?

Was that why you called?