So many ideas in my head!

I think I could come up with a theory and possible answer to any question right now. lol
Brain working overtime lately.
Maybe it's because of my diet.

Had a great weekend and then some.

Need to have a business meeting soon with my friend so we can get this thing rolling.

I only have saturday off this week. I guess I'll survive but my body hurts in a new place every day.

Soon I'll be rich and I won't have to work in the "salt mine" anymore!

Shoe design.

Hjälp mig att vinna, rösta på mina skor här!

Hjälp mig att vinna, rösta på mina skor här!

It's like...

It's like not completely understanding the words to a song you really like.
Like you know that if you're understanding it right it might become your favourite song because the melody is one of the most beautiful you've ever heard.

It's like my brain says "Yes, of course!" but my heart says "I'm not ready yet."

It's like not being healthy or sick but somewhere in between.

It's like this and my brain keeps trying to solve problems that don't really exist.

It's like I know I am understood and I understand too but something is holding it back.

It's like I need to be surprised. I need something unexpected to happen.

Jumpstart my heart.

Vacation week!

Did I pick a great week or what?
Sunny and warm (hot) every day so far.

Haven't really done much. Cleaning my apartment. Been shopping.
Today I'm going to visit my parents.
Going to buy lots of bacon at the meat shop in my hometown.

Later this week a friend is coming over to help me fix my dvd player and we'll talk about my business idea.

Anyway, when I finish cleaning everyone is welcome! ;D
I accepted a couchsurfing request for the end of the month. A whole family from Turkey!
I think it'll be fun. :D

Still haven't decided if I'm going anywhere on my long vacation in August.
Japan is out o the picture but I might take som last minute flight somewhere else.

Right now I'm pretty exited about the future!

Language.

Lately I feel like my language is becoming a little wierd. Mostly just when I speak swedish though. I'm using words that are not so common and frasing myself in non ordinary ways.

It's not like I'm really trying to do it. It's just how it pops into my head as I say or write something.

I'm grammatically correct, just kindof elaborate?

Can't really explain it.

Maybe it's just some strange phase in my life that I'll get over soon.

Maybe It'll just get worse and soon even less people will be able to understand me. ;D

Vacation

Almost time for a weeks vacation. Just a taste until I take 3 more weeks in August.

I won't be going to Japan this year. I miss it alot but many of my friends just don't have time

for me so I'll stay home.

Looking forward to wearing white! I can't wear it when I work because I'd get dirty.

Also I'll be using my awesome false nails that I bought in Japan years ago. Haha!

Only two more days to go.

Oh, there's this thing...

I haven't been blogging much lately.

Been home from work because my shoulder hurt alot. Must be some kind of inflammation.

It's getting better so I'm not worried.

When the pain goes away I think I want to go swimming. It's been a long time and I really like being in the water. I need some form of exercise.

Can't be fat and lazy forever.

When I'm at home alone like this I can't help thinking about life.

What to do, who to trust.

Boys...worry me.

Even if there's someone I really like who says he likes me too, I'm afraid to trust that.

Last time someone swore he loved me it was all bullshit.

Everytime I try to grasp love it just runs through my fingers like sand.

Somehow though, it leaves me feeling emptier than before every time.

I don't blame myself though.

I've done nothing wrong.

Loving is never wrong.

Right?

Right now I've realized my computer is my best friend. Isn't that tragic? Hah!

But lately I've mostly been waiting for someone. Someone I feel is special.

I want more time with this person.

And a meeting in real life.

This week I started planning for a trip to Japan.

Only reason I want to go is to see my friends.

I'm not a tourist anymore. I don't need much shopping.

Still haven't booked a ticket though. I'm unsure.

It doesn't feel like I should go this year.

I just don't feel welcome.

I'm afraid it'll be like last year.

So the more I think about it I feel like I won't go.

I don't want to be alone there. And I feel like I'd just be a burden to my friends.

There's really not much point in me going.

I know someone wants to see me but I can't just go for a week.

The longer I wait the more expensive the tickets get.

Right now I'm just waiting.

The white nights are coming soon.

I want a new bicycle.

I want a healthy body.

I want to fall in love, with all my heart, with someone who loves me back the same way.

I want to be rich and be able to go anywhere, anytime.

I want to go to South Korea.

I want to learn Japanese and Korean.

So much I want but all I do is sit and dream.

Maybe it's time to wake up.