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Pendant

2011-12-20T11:57:00.000+01:00

My galaxy.

It looks a lot more scratched in the photo but it's really very shiny. Completely made in sterling silver.

School projects.

2011-12-15T22:32:00.000+01:00

This year I started a two year university program in gemology, goldsmithing and gemstone engineering.

I've almost fininshed 1/4 of the program and this is the practical things I've done so far.

Three cabochon cut stones. Quartzite, serpentine and marble. I made these for the course in cabochon cutting but I've also cut many other stones.

A silver ring for the first part of the gold/silver smithing course. It's not my own design. Made to specific measurements as part of the course.

A pendant I'm working on for the goldmithing course. It's shaped like a galaxy but it's not finished yet. I might make a collection of this design later.

So far it's been a great experience to be a university student although I live far from campus. I've moved to Lannavaara in the far north of sweden. I've seen huge auroras and lots of reindeer and even with the cold it's pretty awesome.

I feel like this is what I'm supposed to to with my life for the moment. :)

Wise Traditions London 2011 - Conference DVD available now

2011-10-11T23:56:00.000+02:00

Just ordered this from amazon.uk.

It's almost too cheap for 14 hours of brilliant talks!

Can't wait to watch it and maybe get some of my friends to watch it too. ;)

Right now I'm watching the exellent talk in this video about the obesity epidemic.

Promotional Video for Wise Traditions London 2011 from Wise Traditions London on Vimeo.

Everyone should watch this.

I really hope that things will change and people will start eating real food again.

My different looks over 3 years in music. :P

2011-08-19T22:59:00.002+02:00

Not sure my voice has impoved but I think my looks have? lol

Orange!

I like this hair alot.

Atomic Pink

Loved this hair. I miss it!

Brown. When I had this hair all my recordings sucked. Hmm...

Like the braids on the side.

So dark.

Suddenly blonde!

Two blondes duette.

Blonde...

Still blonde.

Well, I've been blonde for a long time now.

Maybe it's time for a change?

Tsuki No Suna - Matenrou Opera

2011-08-12T21:57:00.000+02:00

kawaita oto wo tate kotoba ga chitte yuku
kokoro ni tsumareteta anata kara no kotoba
watashi no ikigai marude suna no you ni
kaze ni nagarete iku katachi dake nokoshite

haiiro de futa wo shita mafuyu no kumori sora
iro wo kasane sugite nigotte shimattano?
dareka ga watashi no kokoro wo egako uto
fude wo kasanete shippai shitamitai

toori sugita hibitonatte iku no kana
soredemo tsunora seteiku
anata he no

nikushimi wo tabanete kanashimi to watashi ha ikiru
kono mune no naka
suna ninatteiku anata ga kureta kotoba no kakera tachi
atsumete mite mo suri nuketeiku bakari
kono teno naka kara

watashi dake ga kizutsuite
watashi dake naiteru
watashi dake hitori de
anata wo omotteru

sukoshi ha hontou nokoto wo shabette ita no?
nani mo kamo utagatte shimau
anata no hontou wo shiri takatta kedo
ima ha sonna koto shiri takuna kattato omou

atataka na tsuki no youni
anata no koto mamori takatta
konna kimochi mo anata nitotte ha
tadano omo ni nishikanara nakatta no kana

nikushimi wo tabanete kanashimi to watashi ha ikiru
kono mune no naka
suna ninatteiku anata ga kureta kotoba no kakera tachi
atsumete mite mosuri nuketeiku bakari
kono teno naka kara
kuyashi ikeredo
namida ga nokotteru anata ga koishii

kawaita oto wo tate kotoba ga chitte iku
kokoro ni tsumareteta anata kara no kotoba

Translation

Words scattering with a hollow sound,
the words from you that were stored in my heart,
Just like the sand, my reason to live
is being swept away by the wind, leaving only its shape behind,

A cloudy, midwinter sky shrouded in grey,
Did it grow muddy because too many colours were layered on?
It’s as if someone tried to paint my heart
but piled on the brushstrokes and failed,

Will every day continue to pass me by?
Even so, I’ll let it grow stronger
toward you…

Controlling my hatred, I will live with sadness
in this heart,
Even if I try to gather them
the fragments of the words you gave me turn to sand,
just slip away from these hands,

Only I am hurting
Only I am crying
Only I am alone
thinking of you

Did you speak a little of the truth?
I end up doubting everything,
Though I wanted to know your truth,
now I think I wouldn’t have wanted to know such things,

Like the warm moon
I wanted to protect you,
But perhaps for you these feelings too
could only become a burden,

Controlling my hatred, I will live with sadness
in this heart,
Even if I try to gather them
the fragments of the words you gave me turn to sand,
just slip away from these hands,
Though it’s frustrating,
there are tears left and I miss you

Words scattering with a hollow sound,
the words from you that were stored in my heart

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http://antares489.wordpress.com/

Training

2011-07-07T14:21:00.000+02:00

Yesterday I bought this vibration training machine.

It's so cool! I got it really cheap second hand but it's like new. I payed 450kr and a new one costs around 3000kr.

After a 10 minute work out today it feels like I've been running three miles. If I use this everyday I will definately become stronger wich is what I'm going for. I need to strengthen my arm, chest and ab muscles.

It gives a really nice massage too. It's awesome and I love it!

Maybe the best buy of the year.

Some of the benefits from using a vibration plate is supposed to be:

Muscles

Stretches Muscles
Develops the elasticity and flexibility of muscles
Improves power and resistance of muscles.

The articulations, tendons andtissues of muscle

Support the flexibility of articulations
Reinforcement of the articulations.

Bones

Helps prevent different risks of osseous lesions
Reinforces the osseous cartilage

Abdominals

Reduces surplus fat in the abdominal region
Supports digestion and helps assimilation by upper and lower intestines

The nervous system

Increases mobility the nerve impulse

The hormones

Induces the secretion of hormones (HGH, IGF-1)
Supports the production of testosterone
Supports production of serotonin and promotes a feeling of wellbeing

Blood circulation

Supports and improves blood circulation
Reinforces the metabolic rate
Reduction of muscular cramps

Skin

Facilitates drainage on the capillary vessels and lymphatic system by improving blood circulation
significant reduction of cellulites
Reinforcement of the elasticity of the skin, helps the production of collagen (anti-ageing)

The sellers claim that one months training on a vibration plate is like one years normal training. I don't really believe that but I guess in a month I'll know if it does something. It sure feels like it will!

Make-up.

2011-07-07T01:19:00.002+02:00

I made a new blog with pics of make-up I have done. Like a portfolio.
Klick here to check it out.

Nara, Japan.

2011-07-05T03:29:00.002+02:00

Watercolour painting. From a photo I took in Nara 2009. First time I've painted a deer. This painting was a little difficult but I think the light and shadow looks good. I kind of hate painting trees. Haha.

Sakurako

2011-07-05T03:24:00.003+02:00

Akiyoshi

2011-07-05T03:20:00.002+02:00

My friend Akiyoshi recently had surgery so I made him a portrait wishing for his health and quick recovery.

It's from a photo I took last time I was in Japan. I love how his back look so warm.

Ting-Fung

2011-06-25T22:35:00.005+02:00

From a photo I took.

Yuhei 2

2011-06-24T17:27:00.005+02:00

Portrait again. I think this one is better than the one I did last night.

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Yuhei

2011-06-24T02:51:00.003+02:00

Portrait of my friend. First try. I'll remake it soon because it was better earlier on and then I ruined it with too much paint. I liked it better when it was more clean black and white before I did the messy background and too much shadow. It's just black water color.

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Emma Headstorm's photostream

2011-06-22T23:02:00.001+02:00

Emma Headstorm's photostream on Flickr.

Images from my life.

What a day.

2011-06-21T20:46:00.001+02:00

Got up at 5.30am and went to Stockholm with the 7.53am train.

Did make-up on a few girls including doing needle marks from drug use.

Also did the make-up for the lead and supporting actor for today's scene wich we shot at a sex club!

It was pretty cool to get to go in there and see what it looks like. All the rooms in the basement and showers and jacuzzis. I wonder how much it costs to get in and get a private show. Can't ppl just rent a porn movie? lol

The bar menu said a pizza cost 990kr (about $155)! I guess maybe the don't want ppl to order food. Haha.

The shoot didn't finish on time of course, it never does so I had to go home before it was over.

I took the train back and rode on my bicycle pretty far to a spa. I had made an appointment earlier so I got 30% off the price. I got a facial treatment and that was great. Acid peeling and masks and stuff. I got some orders from the girl who treated me. I gotta lay off the stong stuff. And by that I don't mean alcohol. I mean strong cleansers. She recommended a face mask made from pure Hungarian lake clay that was black so I bought a tube.

Booked another appointment in August and I'm looking forward to that.

When going homw it started to rain so I had to stop under a tree for a while because I couldn't let my face get wet.

Now I'm finally home! Later than expected but better late than never.

I'm gonna relax now.

Tomorrow I get my new RA medicine, Humira.

Hoppet

2011-06-19T01:14:00.001+02:00

Hoppet är det sista som dör.
Jag kan inte ge upp än.
Vad jag än gör känner jag att jag vill vara mer än en vän.
Du vet det nu men jag vet inte om du förstår.
För du vill ha mig kvar som en vän ändå.
Det har hänt mig förut och det sårade mig djupt.
Klarar jag det igen eller ska jag ge detta ett slut?
Att älska är alltid en risk men jag tror på...
att man måste ge för att kunna få.

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Flow chart to my heart.

2011-06-05T02:41:00.001+02:00

Making these are fun! lol

Painting.

2011-06-02T23:05:00.001+02:00

Based on the photo below. It's just black acrylic on a linen canvas. I think I overdid it a little bit. Wish I could have gotten more luminosity in it like in the photo but it's still pretty nice, I think. First thing I've painted in years! This took me only 5 hours but it's really small. 12 x 18 cm.

Should I paint more?

Photography

2011-06-02T16:13:00.000+02:00

This is a photo I took in Japan 2009. I'm thinking of making a painting out of it.

The original photo is in colour but I think it looks more interesting in black and white.

I miss Japan.

Dating personality test results.

2011-06-02T03:46:00.004+02:00

Maid of honor.

Appreciated for your kindness and envied for all your experience, you are The Maid of Honor.

Charismatic, affectionate, and terrific in relationships, you are what many guys would call a “perfect catch”—and you probably have many admirers, each wishing to capture your long-term love. You’re careful, extra careful, because the last thing you want is to hurt anyone. Especially some poor boy whose only crime was liking you.

We’ve deduced you’re fully capable of a dirty fling, but you do feel that post-coital attachment after hooking up. So, conscientious person that you are, you do your best to reserve physical affection for those you respect...so you can respect yourself.

Your biggest negative is the byproduct of your careful nature: indecision. You’re just as slow rejecting someone as you are accepting them.

Shopping!!!

2011-05-27T16:16:00.005+02:00

Since I quit my job I can now wear whatever I want when I go out so I've been updating my closet.

Thrown out some of the old stuff I used to wear at work but wouldn't be want to seen in in public

and bought some great new dresses for this hopefully warm and relaxing summer.

I rarely buy designer clothes but now a new second hand store has opened in my city. They only quality designer labels and I love shopping there because you can really find some unique and cool stuff.

Today I found this great silk top by Rützou. It's very dressy but casual and it's something I feel like I can wear anytime, anywhere even if I feel fat that day. ;)

It's very cool how the silk is woven in the pattern of little hearts. Cute!

I also bought this dress by DAY Birger et Mikkelsen.

It was really hard to take a pic that shows the actual colour but it matches my eyes. ;)

It's super comfy and pretty.

Yesterday I went to VIP shopping at JOY and I bought my two favourite dresses from the store because I got a 30% discount.

I think this dress is super cool and very fresh. Even if it has alot of ruffles it feels more runway than boheme.

The ruffles are all in the right places too if you know what I mean.

And then some real romance.

I just love this! It's the perfect summer picnic, Swedish midsummer dress.

Also really comfy and wide.

I had a 25% discount at Dea Axelssons as well so I went and bought this great off white cardigan that goes with both dresses and basically everything else. Great with jeans!

Now I just need to get better at buying basic clothing like white t-shirts and such because I suck at that. I have a huge closet full of clothes that don't really go together. I really need some basics to tie it all together and make the unique and cool pieces I have stand out more.

Personality disorder test results.

2011-05-25T22:41:00.003+02:00

Personality Disorder Test Results

Paranoid	\|\|\|\|\|\|	26%
Schizoid	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	62%
Schizotypal	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	74%
Antisocial	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	46%
Borderline	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	34%
Histrionic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	42%
Narcissistic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	66%
Avoidant	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	42%
Dependent	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	46%
Obsessive-Compulsive	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	34%

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So my top three are:

Schizotypal Personality Disorder - individual is uncomfortable in close relationships, has thought or perceptual distortions, and peculiarities of behavior.

Narcissistic Personality Disorder - individual has a grandiose view of themselves, a need for admiration, and a lack of empathy that begins by early adulthood and is present in various situations. These individuals are very demanding in their relationships.

Schizoid Personality Disorder - individual generally detached from social relationships, and shows a narrow range of emotional expression in various social settings.

Disorder Info

Eccentric Personality Disorders: Paranoid, Schizoid, Schizotypal

Individuals with these disorders often appear odd or peculiar.

Paranoid Personality Disorder - individual generally tends to interpret the actions of others as threatening.
Schizoid Personality Disorder - individual generally detached from social relationships, and shows a narrow range of emotional expression in various social settings.
Schizotypal Personality Disorder - individual is uncomfortable in close relationships, has thought or perceptual distortions, and peculiarities of behavior.

Dramatic Personality Disorders: Antisocial, Borderline, Histrionic, and Narcissistic

Individuals with these disorders have intense, unstable emotions, distorted self-perception, and/or behavioral impulsiveness.

Antisocial Personality Disorder - individual shows a pervasive disregard for, and violation of, the rights of others.

Borderline Personality Disorder - individual shows a generalized pattern of instability in interpersonal relationships, self-image, and observable emotions, and significant impulsiveness.

Histrionic Personality Disorder - individual often displays excessive emotionality and attention seeking in various contexts. They tend to overreact to other people, and are often perceived as shallow and self-centered.

Narcissistic Personality Disorder - individual has a grandiose view of themselves, a need for admiration, and a lack of empathy that begins by early adulthood and is present in various situations. These individuals are very demanding in their relationships.

Anxious Personality Disorders: Avoidant, Dependent, Obsessive-Compulsive

Individuals with these disorders often appear anxious or fearful.

Avoidant Personality Disorder - individual is socially inhibited, feels inadequate, and is oversensitive to criticism

Dependent Personality Disorder - individual shows an extreme need to be taken care of that leads to fears of separation, and passive and clinging behavior.

Obsessive-Compulsive Personality Disorder - individual is preoccupied with orderliness, perfectionism, and control at the expense of flexibility, openness, and efficiency.

I should just stop talking to people.

2011-04-05T12:38:00.000+02:00

I'll just make people hate me sooner or later.

Nobody wants honesty even if they say thay do.
Nobody want to hear someone elses opinion.

People only want you to tell them what they want to hear.
And then sometimes they don't want you to tell them that either.

I'm just confused.

It all comes down to that I have this bad habit of caring about people who don't give a shit about me.

It dissapoints me so when people act like spoiled little children.

This song says it.

2011-03-02T22:10:00.000+01:00

Birthday!

2011-02-28T23:19:00.000+01:00

OMG I can't believe I'm so old! lol

Well, I had a great week and now I just gotta look forward to the rest of my life.

So, happy 30th birthday to me!

It's that time of the year again.

2011-02-12T16:16:00.000+01:00

I hate that I have to decide when to have my summer vacation now.
Last year I didn't go to Japan because I just could't get in thouch with anyone in time to plan.
If I want to go this year, I know I have to go alone again. If my friends in Japan don't have time to hang out with me when I'm there it'll suck, like last time.

There's another possibility I was hoping for but now it seems like it's not going to happen.
I would have been happy staying home if there was someone here that wanted to be with me.

I don't need to go to Japan but if I don't have anything else to do I want to go.

I want to go to Japan in August, like I always do. June and July is the rainy season so that's not so fun.
August is hot and it's still summer. August has obon and matsuri.
September is ok too but it gets colder then and the summer fun is over.
Maybe a stay at a nice onsen ryoukan could be fun though. I've never been to one.

Anyway, I have to save up alot of money so I can't really go sooner than August.
Depending on how much money I have, maybe I could stay up to seven weeks.
But that's only if I have some friends to keep me company.

Today I was looking for information about becoming an english teacher in Japan but I found out I need a university degree to get a visa for work in Japan so I'd have to go to university here first.
I can't really find anything I want to study though and I'm starting to feel like it's almost too late now.
Can't really feel motivated but somehow I need to.

Why do I always feel more motivated to help other people but not to help myself?!

Sometimes I feel like I have wasted the best years of my life working at a job I don't like and not getting anywhere. I could have studied, met more people, travelled more and had more fun.
Now I'm 30, I have RA, no edjucation, no boyfriend and no freedom.

How can I turn this around?

Nee Demo kotae janakute Riyuu ga hoshiin da!!

2011-02-11T23:36:00.002+01:00

Forever or never

2011-01-20T19:49:00.001+01:00

It's all or nothing now. If it doesn't work out I'll drive it into the ground. I'll destroy it completely and leave no doubts. No ifs, buts or hows.

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In this new year...

2011-01-15T02:46:00.000+01:00

There are some things I want to hold on to from the last year and some things I want to let go.

I'll probably never lose hope in some things no matter how realistic I am, I still dream alot.

I'm ready for what comes my way so bring it on!

Duett with Majsan. :D

2010-12-21T01:17:00.002+01:00

Wish list. ;)

2010-12-17T00:49:00.002+01:00

Loser

2010-12-13T23:11:00.002+01:00

I thought I was gonna win against this cold but today it got the best of me.
I slept till 2pm and then I had to call work and say I'm sick.
Not much use in going to work with snot constantly dripping from my nose. lol
I was really, really tired today. Stayed in bed most of the day re-reading my favourite books.
I just finished the first part of the trilogy. I guess it's called the Darkangel trilogy as that is the name of the first book. I read them the first time when I was in seventh grade I think but they're still my favourite books.
They're supposed to be "childrens books" but they're really for any age I think. It's a magnificent fairy tale of a young girl becoming a woman through her adventures to save her world, our moon, in a very distant future.
The books are written by Meredith Ann Pierce.

So I've been reading all day. Took pauses to eat leftover pizza and watch glee and our swedish Hollywood wives on tv.

When reading I feel less lonely.
I still miss someone.

I just hate leaving things...unfinished. Unresolved.
But I guess I need patience.

Some day my prince will come, right? ;)

My limit.

2010-12-09T00:39:00.002+01:00

I'm ok with my health most of the time but it's hard being at work.

It's hard enough having RA, I don't want to have to explain to people everyday why I can't do certain things at work. If I say I'm sick they just think "well everyone's a little sick" and they think I'm lazy and give me dirty looks.
I don't want to have to talk about it so much. That just starts with the pity from them and it makes me feel worse.

I have to live with this for the rest of my life and it's not gonna go away or get better.
I can't find a boyfriend because I'm so picky. I live alone. I have no one to help me if I happen to need help with something other people take for granted.

Like I said, most of the time I'm ok but I have a limit to how stong I can be and I reached it today.

Sonet

2010-12-08T16:42:00.001+01:00

Sigh no more ladies, sigh no more. Men were deceivers ever. One foot in sea and one on shore. To one thing constant never. Then sigh not so but let them go, and be you blight and bonnie. Converting all your sounds of woe into hey nonny, nonny!

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Something that made me lol.

2010-11-27T22:22:00.000+01:00

If I was like that when I am drunk I'd freak out if I looked in my closet. lol

Trying out blogger droid.

2010-11-27T14:59:00.001+01:00

Yesterday I went to a piano bar with my friends. It's a cool place at the top of a skyscraper but it got really crowded so we moved on to another place. It was a fun night.

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Yep.

2010-11-24T23:54:00.000+01:00

One month to christmas.

(random pic)

December is the worst month at my job.
Too much mail.

Recently I've been shopping alot from eBay.
It's really great.
I bought gemstones, beads, nail art stuff and lots more.
Gotta put a hold on it now though because I really don't have much money.

I've been unable to work full time for a while now, because of my RA, so I haven't been able to save any money every month.
It's not like I'm poor but I'm sure not rich...yet!

Today I've been day dreaming about meeting some of my favourite musicians. lol
Just think it'd be alot of fun to actually hang out with them in person.
Since I'm always so lonely IRL I'll dream about rock stars. lol

I started watching the new season of Hell's Kitchen.
Wish I had a personal chef.
Someone who's really great at asian food. Someone who'll cook wierd, delicious asian food for me. lol
I'm hungry now.

Here are some false nails I made! I'm proud. I think they're really cute.
And no, I don't have 12 fingers. Just wasn't sure what size to use so I made an extra pair.

Well, I'll go get something to eat now and then continue watching Hell's Kitchen!

Weekend.

2010-11-18T22:17:00.001+01:00

I guess I won't be enjoying it so much because I really need to do laundry and clean.
I need to stay home.
No more spontanious trips, staying too long and feeling unwanted.
(I had a little adventure last weekend.)

Went to the hospital today for my regular blood test. Do it every other week.
Gotta make sure my liver's not messed up by the RA medicine.
My test results have been great so far.

Then I went to my friend and picked up a "new" DVD player and wireless router I bought from him.
Yay, no more dragging the net cable around at home. I gotta test the DVD player tomorrow.
It's supposed to be region free. I need that for my japanese DVDs to work!

My sugar detox is going pretty good. Got lots of great tea to enjoy.
I have a craving for chocolate right now though.

Gonna eat more chicken wings and start watching Fringe now.

The complications of trying not to be complicated.

2010-11-17T15:53:00.000+01:00

I've been acting stupid and silly.

I thought I was stronger.

I realize I can't make him care about me.

Giving up is hard. I don't want to but I guess I should.

No more clinging. No more dreams.

Just friends.

Feelings?

2010-11-14T15:11:00.000+01:00

Don't tell me you love me a little if you don't think you could ever love me more.

kaeranai hibi wo aishita hito yo

2010-11-12T16:07:00.000+01:00

"sayonara" wo kakusu futari ja naku
"sayonara" ni naku futari de itai
omoikaesu yori wasurete hoshii
soshite watashi wo kuuhaku ni oite
mou sugita hibi wo ottarishinaide

Halloween!

2010-10-29T20:40:00.000+02:00

First time trying on ganguro make-up! Ahhh I can't wait to go out looking like this tomorrow! lol
I'll look as crazy as the real thing. Lots of accessories and platform shoes! I'm exited, yay!

Portrait.

2010-10-07T19:34:00.004+02:00

김성민

Methotrexate

2010-09-22T17:53:00.002+02:00

Started on medication for my RA.
I hope it goes well.
I got three differrent pills to take! And a schedule to follow when taking them.

I'm staying at my parents house for a week. Been here 3 days now.
Wasn't planning on staying so long so I have to go home and get some stuff tonight.
I gotta get my ps3! I miss playing NIER.
That game is great. It has awesome music too.

I bought a new iPod nano on apple store. Maybe I won't be home when they deliver it.
Anyway I can go get it from the post office later.

I want to buy a new tv. I want a Samsung 3D tv.
I want a white one but they have no white 3D tvs yet. Maybe I should wait a little longer.

What's life?

2010-09-18T00:04:00.001+02:00

I can't decide if I want to play Nier or watch Coffee Prince.
I can't decide if I should fight or give up.

I feel so unlucky in love.

I want a cocktail but that'll probably just make me sleepy.
Tomorrow I'm going out. It's culture night.
Lot's of stuff happening everywhere in town.
My friends band is playing.

I slept alot today. So tired.
Got my period.
I was almost wishing I would be pregnant.
Some way to force change.
To not be ignored anymore.

Everything is just a dream.

Dollface

2010-09-13T23:02:00.001+02:00

Pics of the doll I did make-up for.
She looks pretty hot!
More pics and my friends cool art can be seen here!

Twitpic - Share photos on Twitter

2010-09-05T15:13:00.000+02:00

Pic from todays photoshoot.

Twitpic - Share photos on Twitter

Tea.

2010-08-27T15:07:00.003+02:00

As you may or may not know, I love tea.
I'm becoming quite a snob or maybe a nerd. lol

Since I've been taking a couple of trips to Stockholm lately, I've been shopping tea in The Tea Centre Of Stockholm. It's a famous tea shop and they have great asian tea. I've been shopping from them online since last year but it's always nice to visit the real shop.
I'm always looking for a good Sencha and they have that! The most I find in other places are pretty bad and smelling too much like hay or some other herbs.
In the shop I bought Japanese Secha, Bai Mu Dan (Chinese white tea), Jasmin Pearl Mountain, Green Cherry, Shui Hsien Oolong and Söderblandning (the shops own famous blend), and a can of maccha.

I've also been trying some Yogi Tea. I love the Black Chai and the Choco Aztec Spice!
So yummy to drink with milk. It's like a dessert. I don't put any sugar in it. I don't think it needs it.
I like to take some cream in my oolong but all the green teas I never put cream, milk or sugar in.

Blends can be ok but I think they're often full of artificial flavours. I prefer drinking just pure tea.
I don't really consider the cheap tea bags (Lipton, Twinnings e.t.c) to be real tea. I'm so snobby. lol
Also I would never buy Lipton because it's owned by Unilever.

It's amazing how different tea can taste. Even if it's all from the same plant, depending on where it's grown and how it's processed after picking, it tastes so different. That's what I think is interesting about tea. If you're interested about learning more about tea, I recommend this great book (in Swedish). Te - från Sencha till Lapsang - Petter Bjerke, Vernon Mauris

I often go drink some great chinese tea at Mälarchoclaterie. They also have amazing chocolate. I love that shop.

At home I alway use my beautiful little tea pot that I bought in Japan for green tea. I like looking around in second hand shops for small tea pots. I almost never use big ones since the tea leaves can be brewed 2-3 times.
I would like to buy a plain glass pot and an unglazed clay pot. Tea pots can be pretty expensive so I'm always happy to find one second hand. I have a nice little collection now.

Some of my tea pots and my favourite cup.

Wow, long post about tea. I guess that proves what a nerd I am. lol

Package from Japan arrived!

2010-08-27T09:51:00.003+02:00

Arigatou Mika!＼(＾▽＾*)

I woke up when a postal delivery guy rang my doorbell.
Why do they always have to deliver packages so early?
Anyway, it was a great way to start the day.

I got alot of beautiful Yuzen origami paper.
And some beautiful presents!
A wallet, mirror and towel!
The wallet is perfect! It has a little chain so it can be used as a kind of small hand bag and it even fits my new Samsung Galaxy S! So I will probably use it alot. (＾▽＾)

ありがとうございます！

Horoscope

2010-08-24T23:28:00.000+02:00

Your capacity to be tactless is matched today only by other people's ability to be equally rude. The planetary configuration indicates that you have every opportunity to set the record straight with someone who needs talking to. If this concerns a permanent relationship, the sooner the better. If it's only a light flirtation, maybe it's time to take the record off altogether and play another tune.

What's going on?

2010-08-24T23:21:00.000+02:00

I wanna know.

But I just wait.

A little longer and then...

Just a thought.

2010-08-20T01:36:00.002+02:00

I want to be the reality you don't want to escape from but I also want to be your dream.

Weekend is over but still vacation!

2010-08-16T09:49:00.000+02:00

I bought a new phone! A Samsung Galaxy S! Finally! Wohooo! lol

I love it! It's awesome.

There was a sale at Panduro (crafts store) this weekend.

50% off everything because they're moving. I shopped for like 1000kr.

Now I have so much stuff to make jewelry! Yay!

I had a visit from Ting this weekend too.

He sure sleeps alot. :p

Watched a few movies.

Solomon Cane was pretty good.

And because Ting had never seen it we watched Legend with Tom Cruise.

That old movie is really well made. It holds up well even today! And it's great.

Now I feel like watching more old fantasy movies.

Trying to install software on my laptop now so I can connect my phone.

Well, I'll post some pics later, maybe.

More food and lazy sunday.

2010-08-08T13:19:00.000+02:00

Heh. I'm proud of my cooking and that I am actually cooking again instead of just boiling eggs. lol
This is todays lunch and dinner.

Think it looks yummy?
It was. ;D
The bacon and onion fry was the best part. I love bacon.

Today is also laundry day. For some reason I really like doing laundry. Maybe it's the smell of clean clothes and how I feel exited about wearing them after they're all clean and fresh that does it.

I'm making some earrings too. I've got so many now. Soon I can start selling more and more. Looking forward to starting my own buisness and getting it going for real.

Dinner.

2010-08-07T20:46:00.001+02:00

Organic beef, mushrooms and creamed spinach with cold green tea.

Things of beauty.

2010-08-07T15:34:00.000+02:00

I love these leggings from Lindex. So much that I got two pairs. lol

Flowers I got from my aunt on my names day. So pretty!

Wooo! Vacation!

2010-08-07T15:21:00.001+02:00

Three wonderful weeks of NO work.

The theme for my vacation will be "Creating Beauty".

This is todays lunch. Mmmm nom. :3

Sausage is not the most healthy food (because of additives) but it was on sale and it's so yummy. Mushrooms with basil and sea salt.
Green tea and some extra omega-3 and vitamin-D.

Today I'll finish the doll make-up, make jewelry, play FFXIII and maybe watch a movie.
I'm so in the flow.

Stockholm.

2010-08-02T00:00:00.000+02:00

Pretty spontanious trip to Stockholm today.
I woke up 8 am and I was so tired on the train later but it felt right.

I like Stockholm more and more these days. ;)

Today I went to meet my new friend.
I bought some clothes and a top I would never buy if I was by myself but I like it and now I figured out the perfect pants to mach it with too.
After shopping we ate ramen at ki mama. They have pretty tasty ramen, a bit expensive but it's the only ramen place in Stockholm so, no choice. lol

All in all it was a pretty great day and I'm happy I could spend some more time with my friend.

Tomorrow is the start of a long new week of work but after that I have three weeks vacation.
I'll probably be in Stockholm alot. Hehe.

Good night!

Why we should eat fat!

2010-07-28T14:01:00.001+02:00

Wise Traditions UK - Barry Groves from Wise Traditions UK on Vimeo.

This is so good. Please watch it.
It could save your life.

Scary how our brains are shrinking.
Those visions about a high tech future might never be reality.
If it keeps going were it is now I think thechnology will end up ruling us.
I'm not gonna let my brain shrink!
And I sure as hell don't want cancer.

I'm so glad I started going back to this traditional diet over a year ago.
I do feel much better now and I lost alot of weight!

Get smart, eat fat!

A playlist of some good songs.

2010-07-27T18:15:00.003+02:00

Myspace playlist of songs I like and listen to often.

Music is so important in my life. I can't live without it.

If I couldn't listen to music I would wither away and die.

About the artists and songs on the playlist;

RADWIMPS has great songs with amazing lyrics and great vocals.

Oshakashama is one of the best songs I have ever heard. The lyrics question mankind and religion.

SHINee is a K-pop band I just recently listened to. Total boy band but somehow I like it.

Lucifer is the first song I heard by them. It has a really shiny video. lol

Naul is a Korean soul singer with an amazing voice. I just can't get enough of his cover album "Back to the soul flight"

Gero or 귀로 (Gwilo?) is the only song from the album I could find on myspace but I love it even though I don't understand the lyrics.

Laleh is a great Swedish artist. I love her unique sound and beautiful voice.

Snö is just such a beautiful love song.

Dir En Grey is one of my favourite rock bands. Geniuses.

Dozing Green is better in japanese but this version is great too.

Does is a band that had opening songs for one of my favourite animes, Gintama. Good rock music.

Donten has such great energy.

If you listen I hope you enjoy.

Ties

2010-07-27T14:22:00.000+02:00

I believe that everyone is connected to eachother by some invisible force.
Sometimes we find people and create stronger ties to them.
From one heart to another like a thread that can reach anywhere.
Maybe some people think they can cut these threads and never be connected to the other person again.
I can't. I feel like it's always going to be there as long as I remember that person.
If it's someone I have cared even a little about I will always remember that person. I will always care.
I will always forgive the other person for trying to cut our ties. Because I will still care.
There are some persons who has cut their ties to me but I am still connected to them.
I think about them often. I wonder if they ever think of me.
Is it just me who just can't throw away people I care about?
If a person wants to cut their ties with me I won't stop them or try to keep them but I will still care about them even though I will leave them alone. If it's their wish, I won't bother them.

To the people who cut their ties to me I want to say; I still care about you and think about you and I hope you are all well wherever you are.

We're all still here under the same sky.

I'm not in love.

2010-07-26T12:30:00.001+02:00

Why did I sleep so long today?
Thought I'd wake up around 9am but no.

I'm so dissapointed.

Go on take everything!

2010-07-25T14:32:00.001+02:00

Having a little Hole revival today.

I love Courtney Love.

My hair inspired me to listen to Hole today. Messy, dirty, blonde. lol

I'm feeling so Doll Parts.

Trying to do make up on my friends doll.

I wish I had an airbrush but I think I'm doing pretty well.

She looks super creepy without eyes. lol

I've been helping alot of people lately.

Maybe I can ask someone for help too soon.

I think I have earned enough points or something.

Isn't that how it works? I don't know. lol

So many ideas in my head!

2010-07-23T00:30:00.000+02:00

I think I could come up with a theory and possible answer to any question right now. lol
Brain working overtime lately.
Maybe it's because of my diet.

Had a great weekend and then some.

Need to have a business meeting soon with my friend so we can get this thing rolling.

I only have saturday off this week. I guess I'll survive but my body hurts in a new place every day.

Soon I'll be rich and I won't have to work in the "salt mine" anymore!

Shoe design.

2010-07-22T22:45:00.003+02:00

Hjälp mig att vinna, rösta på mina skor här!

It's like...

2010-07-22T12:53:00.001+02:00

It's like not completely understanding the words to a song you really like.
Like you know that if you're understanding it right it might become your favourite song because the melody is one of the most beautiful you've ever heard.

It's like my brain says "Yes, of course!" but my heart says "I'm not ready yet."

It's like not being healthy or sick but somewhere in between.

It's like this and my brain keeps trying to solve problems that don't really exist.

It's like I know I am understood and I understand too but something is holding it back.

It's like I need to be surprised. I need something unexpected to happen.

Jumpstart my heart.

Vacation week!

2010-07-14T11:17:00.000+02:00

Did I pick a great week or what?
Sunny and warm (hot) every day so far.

Haven't really done much. Cleaning my apartment. Been shopping.
Today I'm going to visit my parents.
Going to buy lots of bacon at the meat shop in my hometown.

Later this week a friend is coming over to help me fix my dvd player and we'll talk about my business idea.

Anyway, when I finish cleaning everyone is welcome! ;D
I accepted a couchsurfing request for the end of the month. A whole family from Turkey!
I think it'll be fun. :D

Still haven't decided if I'm going anywhere on my long vacation in August.
Japan is out o the picture but I might take som last minute flight somewhere else.

Right now I'm pretty exited about the future!

Language.

2010-07-08T23:19:00.003+02:00

Lately I feel like my language is becoming a little wierd. Mostly just when I speak swedish though. I'm using words that are not so common and frasing myself in non ordinary ways.

It's not like I'm really trying to do it. It's just how it pops into my head as I say or write something.

I'm grammatically correct, just kindof elaborate?

Can't really explain it.

Maybe it's just some strange phase in my life that I'll get over soon.

Maybe It'll just get worse and soon even less people will be able to understand me. ;D

Vacation

2010-07-08T12:31:00.003+02:00

Almost time for a weeks vacation. Just a taste until I take 3 more weeks in August.

I won't be going to Japan this year. I miss it alot but many of my friends just don't have time

for me so I'll stay home.

Looking forward to wearing white! I can't wear it when I work because I'd get dirty.

Also I'll be using my awesome false nails that I bought in Japan years ago. Haha!

Only two more days to go.

Oh, there's this thing...

2010-06-05T22:46:00.002+02:00

I haven't been blogging much lately.

Been home from work because my shoulder hurt alot. Must be some kind of inflammation.

It's getting better so I'm not worried.

When the pain goes away I think I want to go swimming. It's been a long time and I really like being in the water. I need some form of exercise.

Can't be fat and lazy forever.

When I'm at home alone like this I can't help thinking about life.

What to do, who to trust.

Boys...worry me.

Even if there's someone I really like who says he likes me too, I'm afraid to trust that.

Last time someone swore he loved me it was all bullshit.

Everytime I try to grasp love it just runs through my fingers like sand.

Somehow though, it leaves me feeling emptier than before every time.

I don't blame myself though.

I've done nothing wrong.

Loving is never wrong.

Right?

Right now I've realized my computer is my best friend. Isn't that tragic? Hah!

But lately I've mostly been waiting for someone. Someone I feel is special.

I want more time with this person.

And a meeting in real life.

This week I started planning for a trip to Japan.

Only reason I want to go is to see my friends.

I'm not a tourist anymore. I don't need much shopping.

Still haven't booked a ticket though. I'm unsure.

It doesn't feel like I should go this year.

I just don't feel welcome.

I'm afraid it'll be like last year.

So the more I think about it I feel like I won't go.

I don't want to be alone there. And I feel like I'd just be a burden to my friends.

There's really not much point in me going.

I know someone wants to see me but I can't just go for a week.

The longer I wait the more expensive the tickets get.

Right now I'm just waiting.

The white nights are coming soon.

I want a new bicycle.

I want a healthy body.

I want to fall in love, with all my heart, with someone who loves me back the same way.

I want to be rich and be able to go anywhere, anytime.

I want to go to South Korea.

I want to learn Japanese and Korean.

So much I want but all I do is sit and dream.

Maybe it's time to wake up.

glaset

2010-05-16T23:25:00.001+02:00

Jag sitter här på andra sidan

och försöker belasta glaset

med tankar och känslor

tills det spricker och du sugs in till mig.

When work is fun.

2010-04-22T00:05:00.005+02:00

Photo by Henrik Pilerud.

Did some work as a make-up artist last week with my friend Henrik Pilerud. He's a great photographer! We worked with Swedish rockers Psychopunch. It was alot of fun! It looks so warm in the picture but I was freezing! Doing make-up on guys who never have worn make-up is fun. I can't wait to see how the pictures turned out! :D

Wow, crazy night out!

2010-04-17T23:43:00.003+02:00

I went out with a friend just to have some fun, and fun it was!
Found a beautiful boy in a club. It's been a while since I did anything like that.
Flirting, dancing, going to an afterparty...yeah it was fun.
Once in a while even I feel like being social.

I wonder what people think of me. I wonder what they thought of me.

Tomorrow I'll be doing make up on a photoshoot with a band called Psychopunch.
Will be fun, It's been a while since I did that too.

It's only midnight but I'm already so tired. Didn't get much sleep last night.
Party, party. ;D

Easy come, easy go...

2010-04-15T14:54:00.003+02:00

I wonder if I'll ever get to talk to him again.
The boy with the greatest smile.

Love horoscope.

2010-04-12T14:57:00.001+02:00

Conversation could become very exciting, with today's position of the heavenly bodies. You may not realize just how truly entertaining the sound of vowels and syllables rolling off the tongue can be, and how much they can improve your love life. You don't need to lay a finger on your sugar honey to get them in the right mood - you just need to talk them into submission.

Interesting!
Can't wait for tonight. Hihi!

LM.C

2010-04-07T23:14:00.003+02:00

Wooh! Great concert!

Not many people there but that made it feel more intimate and cozy. ^^

Few things make me as happy as getting a look and smile from Maya and Aiji.

Mayas MC-ing was fun and he's really good at english now.

As usual I managed to get to second row in the audience, even though I went in last.

Stood behind a girl who was a whole head shorter than me so I felt like I was in front row. :D

I wish they would've had another record signing though. OR an afterparty!

It's my dream to just get to talk to them. Have a conversation.

I want to know what goes on in their heads. lol

I hope they come back soon!

Lazy sunday.

2010-03-28T20:44:00.003+02:00

Been watching moves, bleaching hair, doing laundry...

Had fun last night on stickam.jp. Met some new friends.

Funny, cute people. :D

I don't really want to be alone today.

When I'm in this mood my thoughts keep going to him, the one I lost, or never really had.

Being close to someone and then just losing all contact is so wierd.

It's a sad thing even if he hurt me alot.

I miss him.

I've been eating way too much sugar lately. It has to stop.

My skin is getting so bad. :(

Next week I'll be strict and just eat eggs again.

Even if I feel sad now I'm sure there's good times ahead.

I can't lose hope.

The snow will melt soon.

New week.

2010-03-22T15:15:00.002+01:00

So I try not to think about what has happened. It's hard though.

Hard to just stop caring about someone. But I'm fine.

Spent the weekend at my parents, in my hometown.

Ate way too much unheathy stuff. Pizza, cola, candy...

Gotta go back to eggs this week.

Next weekend I was thinking maybe I'd go to Stockholm. Not sure now though.

I kinda need to stay home and think too. Think about startin my own company.

My jewelry is getting popular and I feel like I should make something of it.

Maybe it could be successful.

Don't know much about buisness though. I just know that I don't want to spend my

life working for someone else.

Thinking about life.

I wish the arms that welcome me wasn't so far away.

Rings.

2010-03-19T15:09:00.002+01:00

I now have posted some pictures of my ring designs in my jewelry blog.

Check it out.

How to succeed?

2010-03-19T14:39:00.002+01:00

Now that I have tried something the only two ways I could think of and neither worked, what do I do next time?

Ah, but I guess it wasn't all up to me anyway.

Both times I tried it was already doomed from the start.

I don't like secrets. I don't like being lied to. I don't like playing jealousy games.

A truly strong person is someone who can talk about their feelings.

I used to keep it all inside. I will be more selfish now.

I had some good practice.

These last months has changed me as a person and made me stronger.

Thank you.

My words of wisdom. lol

2010-03-19T00:08:00.002+01:00

When you let your pride hurt others you don't really have anything to be proud of. Truly strong people don't need that kind of pride.

Why be sad if you just lose something you never really had?

So what now?

2010-03-18T23:30:00.002+01:00

Do I feel like I wasted six months?
Maybe.
I had alot of emotions invested.
I do feel like I learned something about myself.
I meant everything I said though.
Never been that honest before.
Honesty doesn't help if the other person doesn't trust what you say.
There was nothing I could do.
I tried my best.

Time to have fun and be myself again!

Congratulations world. ;D

It's over again.

2010-03-18T13:26:00.003+01:00

I'm so sick of this I don't even care anymore.
I accept what has been said and will move on.
I thought I had found my equal.

The aren't many people who can truly be my friends.

I wasn't looking for love so I shouldn't be so sad that I didn't really find it.
Right?

So I'm thinking this is for the best.

Learn from the bad and then forget it.
Remember the good and cherish those memories.

Let time heal the damage done and move on.

No use crying over broken dreams because they were only dreams.

Time to wake up.

I have my whole amazing life waiting for me!

Sigh no more...

2010-03-14T17:41:00.002+01:00

Sigh no more ladies,
Sigh no more,
Men were decievers ever,
One foot in sea,
and one on shore,
To one thing constant never,
Then sigh not so,
But let them go,
And be you bithe and bonny,
Converting all
your sounds of woe,
Into hey nonny nonny!

女のみち

2010-03-04T23:42:00.001+01:00

wish I had the range to sing this...

Stuck.

2010-03-04T23:12:00.002+01:00

So I didn't get a new job.

Hope that's because there's something better waiting for me out there.

For now I feel stuck.

I want to leave here and go to where my love is but I have to wait.
I'm not welcome there yet.

I just want to be happy.

I'll keep trying.

Still holding on to my dream.

Again.

2010-03-04T23:04:00.002+01:00

All I could think about when you called me today was how beautiful you are.

I was surprised you called.

Why did you call?

Did you want to end it the way you did?

Was that why you called?

Love horoscope.

2010-02-28T23:13:00.000+01:00

Don't settle for second best when only true love will do. You may have had many opportunities lately to make a love connection, but remember that love can't be measured in quantity. It's far more important that you hold out for quality, especially when it comes to matters of the heart.

So true.

Hanamachi collection.

2010-02-12T15:46:00.004+01:00

This is the new style of my earrings. Made with beautiful paper from Kyoto.

A little bit smaller and colorful.

I wish I had a better camera.

Some one, point a camera at me.

2010-02-05T14:28:00.001+01:00

If you could see our lifes as an asian tv drama, would you be able to understand my feelings then?

Natal chart for me!

2010-01-26T12:31:00.003+01:00

Planetary Positions at Birth (February 28, 1981 at 13:58 GMT)

Sun: 09º 55' in Pisces
Moon: 26º 59' in Sagittarius
Mercury: 20º 01' in Aquarius
Venus: 00º 26' in Pisces
Mars: 17º 06' in Pisces

Jupiter: 08º 32' in Libra
Saturn: 08º 24' in Libra
Uranus: 00º 05' in Sagittarius
Neptune: 24º 39' in Sagittarius
Pluto: 23º 57' in Libra

Aspects

Conjunction: Jupiter Saturn 0º
Conjunction: Moon Neptune 2º
Conjunction: Sun Mars 7º
Quincunx: Sun Jupiter 1º
Quincunx: Sun Saturn 1º
Semi-Sextile: Mercury Mars 2º

Sextile: Mercury Neptune 4º
Sextile: Moon Pluto 3º
Sextile: Moon Venus 3º
Sextile: Neptune Pluto 0º
Square: Venus Uranus 0º
Trine: Mercury Pluto 3º
Trine: Venus Pluto 6º

The Sun in Pisces
The Sun and its place on your chart are the most important information astrology can provide you with. Your most powerful energies and force-of-will are denoted by the Sun's position.

Traits: Imaginative, Sensitive, Compassionate, Kind, Selfless, Unworldly, Intuitive and Sympathetic

Dark Traits: Escapist And Idealistic, Secretive And Vague, Weak-Willed And Easily Led

You were born during a period when the Sun was in Pisces. Pisceans are spiritual beings ruled by their feelings. Their journey through life will involve much soul searching and retreat into that hazy world which exists between the real and the unreal. While they are very happy traveling the paths of their inner world, the Piscean compassion and need to help others will ensure they return to the real world regularly.

Pisceans tend to go where life takes them. If they do not like their current direction, they simply retreat into themselves until their direction changes. One of the great dangers for the Pisceans is they sometimes become so involved in their dreams and fantasies they find it difficult to separate fact from fantasy. Another danger is that their docile nature makes it easy for others to take advantage of them.

Pisceans must not allow themselves to become detached from those around them, because they will become depressed, pessimistic and languid. The gentle Pisceans are usually far too shy to tout their talents, which in the arts may be formidable. Their compassion and empathy seems to be without bounds, which makes them a great ally for anyone.

Sun Conjunct Mars
You are ripe with masculine energy! There is nothing meek about either your mental or physical self. You love competition and winning. Often your physical prowess is expressed sexually. You are not one to allow others to set boundaries for you and may react ruthlessly when someone tries to.

Moon In Sagittarius
The placement of the Moon on your chart denotes a region of life you travel through based upon your instincts. The Moon's placement often points to emotional issues we must address.

Because you are so warm and kindhearted you are blessed with a lengthy list of friends. You can be the life of any party! You are the eternal optimist. Where others see obstacles that cannot be overcome, you see challenges to that make life more interesting. You have a playful spirit and are always ready for a new adventure.

Your need to maintain a positive attitude makes you uncomfortable when you or anyone has problems even you cannot see a solution for. The emotional problems of others may make you flee.

For you friends may be as important as love. Indeed, it is likely your mate is your best friend and a mentor. You need a circle of friends who encourage your endeavors and share your positive attitude.

Moon Sextile or Trine Venus
You have a marvelous gift for letting those you love know how deeply you care for them. Your loved ones are very comfortable around you, because they know that while you ay not agree with them, you do accept them for who they are

Moon Conjunct Neptune
You do not do well when regularly confronted with the cruelties and injustices of our world. You are such a gentle soul and so able to empathize with the pains of others that their pain becomes yours if you don't retreat into your kinder, gentler inner world.

Moon Sextile or Trine Pluto
You thrive on intense emotional situations and unrestrained passion. The world's many mysteries enthrall you. Although deeply emotional, you are very good at keeping your feelings in check when events call for a cool head and clear thinking.

Mercury In Aquarius
The position of Mercury on your chart will give you insight into how you communicate with others and learn.

Your keen intellect is never mired down by subjectivity. You are extremely creative and often come up with innovative answers to very difficult problems. You are comfortable with your intellect and trust it to guide your way.

When you know you're right about something you do not hesitate to state for you view or plan of action. On those rare times when you make a mistake you do not make excuses or hesitate to admit you were wrong.

You love intellectual freedom and will defend yours and others right to have unique opinions and solutions. You have found that you can learn from almost anyone, and make those around you comfortable with expressing their thoughts by ensuring they will not be attacked. Your goal is to learn, not judge.

Mercury Sextile or Trine Neptune
You are attracted to avenues of thought which defy the rational. When allowed your imagination takes you to places most people don’t know exist. The arts probably attract you as a form of personal expression.

Mercury Sextile or Trine Pluto
You are enthralled by hidden truths. You love to "uncover" the truth. Your mind is strong enough to allow you to explore the inner-core of consciousness. You probably are attracted to the mysterious and occult.

Venus In Pisces
Where Venus appears on your chart will provide you with information on how you relate to others on an emotional level.

The depth of your feelings is nearly bottomless. You are both full of passion and compassion. Sometimes it isn’t clear which of the two traits is playing the lead role in who you create a relationship with. You are a true giver, and neither ask or expect anything in return from those who receive from you.

Your romanticism is stirred by your rich imagination. You believe there is a perfect mate for you and everyone, and probably have a well structured model of the ideal lover for you. Sensitivity and creativity attract you. It would not be surprising if you were involved with someone in the arts and took on the role as muse.

Venus Opposition or Square Uranus
About the only thing you do quicker than falling in love is falling out of love. Your affairs of the heart tend to begin with massive amounts of unrestrained passion, but this high state of energy ends quickly and boredom sets in. Also your need for personal freedom quickly makes any traditional relationship feel a bit oppressive.

Venus Sextile or Trine Pluto
The intensity of your passion either draws people to you or makes them flee! You are capable of such deep emotion some really do find it disconcerting. You are very charming and those of your sexual preference find you very attractive. You can be a bit of a manipulator.

Mars In Pisces
Mars is the planet of action. Its placement on your chart will indicate your level of aggression and competitiveness.

Your gentle nature makes you willing to surrender before fighting. Your life is not driven by a need to achieve or win or be number one. Ideally you will set off on your own path in search of your true spiritual self. You are an explorer, but the plane on which explore is too lofty for most to attain. Because your aspirations are so out of sync with the masses your life's path may be difficult on the material level. However, inwardly your creative mind and inherent sense of the cosmos will provide with a colorful life few of us will ever have the privilege to experience.

Jupiter In Libra
Jupiter deals with where the Universe is definitely on your side.

Your diplomatic skills and ability to keep things in balance make you a great team-player. People know you will treat them fairly and listen to their side of a story without bias. You have a knack for finding solutions that benefit all sides of a conflict.

Jupiter Conjunct Saturn
You are not likely to reach beyond your grasp. Having a good measure of reality allows you to set your goals to aim for what is possible. You approach projects with a well disciplined, analytical vent and the staying power to see even the longest projects through to a successful end. Its probable you underestimate your abilities at times.

Saturn In Libra
Saturn probes our sense of inadequacy. Where Saturn is on your chart will provide a key to where you feel your weakest.

For you intimacy may be more of a chore than a pleasure.

Uranus In Sagittarius
Because of distance Uranus is from the Sun, its astrological influence is measured in increments of 7 years. What this means is that the effects of Uranus influence an entire generation. The placement of Uranus on your chart denotes an area where you can expect the unexpected from the Universe and yourself.

Because of distance Uranus is from the Sun, its astrological influence is measured in increments of 7 years. What this means is that the effects of Uranus influence and entire generation.

Your generation is noted for their creative development, optimism and vision. Your focus general focus is on shaping the future. For your generation the here and now is simply a base from which to leap into tomorrow.

Neptune In Sagittarius
Because of distance Neptune is from the Sun, its astrological influence is generally measured in increments of 14 years. What this means is that the effects of Neptune will influence an entire generation in a like manner. Neptune is the Astrological Wildcard. The area in which Neptune appears on your chart is a place where there are no rules. Anything can happen.

You are member of a generation of dreamers and purveyors of the future. You and your contemporaries are very broad-minded and thrive on new forms of spirituality. Traditional religions are far too dogmatic to serve you well, so you are very likely to explore alternative routes to find your spiritual self.

Neptune Trine Pluto
You were born in a period when there was an underlying current of spiritual awareness prevailed. Collectively your generation has a desire to increase the depths of their spiritual self.

Pluto In Libra

Because of the distance Pluto is from the Sun, its astrological influence is generally measured in increments ranging from 12 to 30 years. What this means is that the effects of Pluto influence an entire generations.

The Pluto/Leo collective includes people born within a 12 year time span. Those under the Pluto/Leo influence want to improve how people communicate on both a social and personal level. You feel much of the world's problems stem from poor communication, so the best way to create a better world is to create more effective forms of relating to one another as individuals as well as groups.

People of this generation truly want to create a more harmonious world in which to live. To do so they are often quick to lessen the importance of their differences and concentrate on what is important to all humans.

More About Pisces

Famous Pisceans:
George Washington, Albert Einstein, George Frederick Handel, Elizabeth Taylor, Cindy Crawford, Kurt Cobain, David Gilmour, Gloria Vanderbilt, Gutenberg, Sibil Leek, Ralph Nader, Edgar Cayce, Sidney Poitier, Elizabeth Barrett Browning, and Chris Casale

Ideal Occupations:
Pisceans are well-suited to careers as veterinarians, biologists, artists, doctors, musicians, psychologists and mediums.

Lucky Numbers: 12, 21, 39, 48, 57

Pisceans Are Usually Most Compatible With: Cancer, Scorpio or Pisces

Planet: Neptune

Element: Water

Star Stone: Moonstone

New neighbours.

2010-01-13T13:38:00.002+01:00

My new neighbours have really loud kids. They scream all day.

I can hear them screaming right now. lol

They're probably not gonna like it if I have parties.

Maybe it's time to move.

I wanna live in a house in the middle of nowhere. In the forest, by a lake.

Where I can sing as loud as I want.

<3

2010-01-13T13:37:00.000+01:00

I hope he still knows I love him.

haiku

2010-01-11T13:20:00.003+01:00

As pure as the snow.

Feelings while waiting for you.

I won't let them melt.

Happy New Year!

2010-01-01T09:59:00.002+01:00

Happy new 2010!

I'm hoping this will be the best year ever. <3

Let's make it awesome!

My resolutions are to stay on my diet and loose more weight, start working out, and get smarter. lol

Om jag älskar.

2009-12-26T23:45:00.001+01:00

Det är kallt och jag är ensam igen.

I mitt städade hem ligger luften tjock av tomhet.

Jag vill inte bråka med den jag älskar.

Jag vill att du ska förstå.

Jag kan inte förklara kärlek.

Om jag älskar dig så älskar jag.

Jag finns här för dig.

Jag vill visa dig.

Det finns ingen anledning.

Om vi älskar varann, varför slösa bort det?

Jag vill inte förlora den jag älskar.

Jag vill kunna lita på dig.

Jag kan inte förklara kärlek.

Om jag älskar dig så älskar jag.

Jag väntar här på dig.

Jag vill träffa dig.

Din röst som sa "Jag älskar dig".

Jag vill tro på den.

Ge inte upp.

Det finns något för oss två.

Du såg det i din dröm.

Jag kan inte förklara kärlek.

Om jag älskar dig så älskar jag.

Jag ser ditt namn där.

Jag vill trösta dig.

Jag vill älska dig.

Love tarot reading.

2009-12-26T16:52:00.001+01:00

There are reasons to be suspicious of blatant contradictions. In this light, someone is skimming the surface because they do not want you to get too close or know them too well. They are the proverbial dance-away lover and you should heed their warning. Hold onto your heartstrings and keep the relationship light. The two of you have to have a serious talk if your partner is guilty of the above as well.

A clean home.

2009-12-26T16:47:00.001+01:00

Makes me feel so alone.

I don't want to be alone.

Sad.

I'll try.

2009-12-22T01:16:00.002+01:00

You shouldn't try to control aggression with peaceful intensions, because this can subsequently cause even more violence. When violent people realize that you won't fight back they take it as sign of weakness instead of understanding that you have evolved past this type of behavior.

I always do that.

So how should I handle situations like that?

Scream and fight back?

That doesn't seem right either.

Love tarot reading.

2009-12-22T01:14:00.001+01:00

The Star represents the end of a previous journey and the beginning of delight. When the Star chooses you it tells of a more balanced course that is something more agreeable than the rollercoaster ride you have been on. Just be careful what you wish for, because the Star is the promise of wishes fulfilled. It is the card of second chances. Or if you didn't or do not take them, third chances.

I wish it is true.

*:･｡,☆ﾟ'･:*:･｡,ヽ(・∀・)ﾉ ,｡･:*:･ﾟ'☆,｡･:*:

Pendant

School projects.

Wise Traditions London 2011 - Conference DVD available now

My different looks over 3 years in music. :P

Tsuki No Suna - Matenrou Opera

Translation

Training

Make-up.

Nara, Japan.

Sakurako

Akiyoshi

Ting-Fung

Yuhei 2

Yuhei

Emma Headstorm's photostream

What a day.

Hoppet

Flow chart to my heart.

Painting.

Photography

Dating personality test results.

Shopping!!!

Personality disorder test results.

I should just stop talking to people.

This song says it.

Birthday!

It's that time of the year again.

Nee Demo kotae janakute Riyuu ga hoshiin da!!

Forever or never

In this new year...

Duett with Majsan. :D

Wish list. ;)

Loser

My limit.

Sonet

Something that made me lol.

Trying out blogger droid.

Yep.

Weekend.

The complications of trying not to be complicated.

Feelings?

kaeranai hibi wo aishita hito yo

Halloween!

Portrait.

Methotrexate

What's life?

Dollface

Twitpic - Share photos on Twitter

Tea.

Package from Japan arrived!

Horoscope

What's going on?

Just a thought.

Weekend is over but still vacation!

More food and lazy sunday.

Dinner.

Things of beauty.

Wooo! Vacation!

Stockholm.

Why we should eat fat!

A playlist of some good songs.

Ties

I'm not in love.

Go on take everything!

So many ideas in my head!

Shoe design.

It's like...

Vacation week!

Language.

Vacation

Oh, there's this thing...

glaset

When work is fun.

Wow, crazy night out!

Easy come, easy go...

Love horoscope.

LM.C

Lazy sunday.

New week.

:･｡,☆ﾟ'･::･｡,ヽ(・∀・)ﾉ ,｡･::･ﾟ'☆,｡･::